Many of talk about what we do as “a calling”. What exactly does that mean? For some, it’s something that God called us to do, and we ran. We ran as fast and as far away from that as we possibly could. Or for others, we started out excited and passionate, and then reality set in and we became disillusioned. It wasn’t anything we did or didn’t do…..it just happened.
For me, growing up as a pastor’s kid in the church, I knew I was called to serve in the church. I never wanted to be a pastor. To me, from a young age on, that wasn’t something I felt was good for a family. So, I wanted to teach. And I did that for one, and then God redirected me from that quite abruptly and directly toward the church. So, over time, and after some struggles in my head, I accepted that calling.
But something else was always weighing on me. Something I felt called to do, but never really invested the time to do it, for a whole lot of reasons, every which one of them was an excuse. I felt called to write music. Initially, I saw it as a way to help increase our income when we were struggling financially…..having two young daughters can definitely lead a father to be concerned about that! Very quickly, however, I realized that it was not as financially lucrative as I had hoped. And, of course, a big part of that was because I didn’t invest the time or believe in myself or my abilities.
Something changed this past week to very directly and abruptly refocus me into that calling. On Thursday, the woman who leads our prayer team asked if she could speak to me in our Senior Pastor’s office. When he isn’t in, we typically use that space as a meeting area. So, we sat down. She tells me that while she was praying on Wednesday night, God put my face in front of her. And she proceeded to to pray things out of me that I hadn’t shared with anyone, along with praying things into me. I will spare you the details, mainly so I don’t start crying while typing this! But the point is that God used this, along with a couple of other things to radically shake me. To tell me that there’s something I’m supposed to be doing.
Due to being in my position for almost 2 years now, that’s about the time that I really, intentionally stopped writing. Oh, I’ve done a few things, here and there, and I’ve got a list of things I’d like to be working on. But, I never made the intentional steps necessary to invest myself in writing and arranging music. But after Thursday morning, I started getting a flood of ideas. The first one was very clear. I need to give things away. So you’ll notice the “Free Stuff” page on the site. And that’s exactly what’s there! FREE THINGS!! 4 of them, in fact. A devotion for church musicians, an organ introduction and harmonization of the hymn “Built on the Rock”, a choral/congregation setting of Psalm 46 and a handbell verse setting of the hymn “A Mighty Fortress”. All you have to do is click on the pdf file, download it, and use it! With this site, and with what I’m doing with these giveaways, it’s my hope and prayer that you are blessed by the music and thoughts I share, and that it encourages and helps you in what you’re doing in your congregations. Obviously, I do have compositions that I have composed (and will be composing) that are available for purchase. If you like the free things you get, I’d appreciate it if you’d consider purchasing some of my other compositions as well.
Finally, to be able to invest more time intentionally into writing music, I’ll be writing blog posts a bit less. Instead of daily, I’m going to scale back to Monday, Wednesday and Friday, with Friday’s post being a YouTube video of me playing the organ. I’ll still be sharing some of my thoughts and encouragements for you to be finding harmony in the physical, spiritual, emotional and relational aspects of your life. Because if we’re not doing that, we will fall very, very, very quickly into that place of frustration, disillusionment and doubt.
Please download the free resources, share with other musicians you know and share the website with others! One last thing. I’ve written a devotion book based on 30 hymns and songs. Today is the last day it is free on Amazon.com. You can either click on this link, or go to Amazon and search for “Words of Worship” with my name. Otherwise, after today, it’s a whopping $.99.
Thanks for all of your support and encouragement!